|Ooh look! A squirrel!!|
On the plus side, I have been sleeping and feeling less depressed. I decided to go back on my trazodone without my doctors knowledge. I didn't feel like playing guinea pig all winter to new drugs that may or may not work. I will make an appointment in the spring. I mean, the last time I saw my primary care doctor it was as if he had just met me, and I have been going to him quite regularly for well over a year. I was frustrated that he asked me my entire fucking history again, (shouldn't he have all this on his magical laptop?), and when I told him I finally quit smoking, instead of congratulating me or giving me a high-five, he told me I need to lose some weight!
He was on my ass forever about quitting smoking and I finally did - been smoke free for seven months now and all he could say was lose weight! So yeah, I haven't been in a huge hurry to go see him this winter. When I felt myself slipping down into that abyss, I recognized it and took action to prevent the downward spiral that I am terrified of heading into again.
So, this is all you get from me today. I don't have anything humorous to give you as I'm just not feeling it this week.